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So much for that effort - couldn't settle at all.  HT suggest taking more lorazepam and waiting to hear from them before I take my venlafaxine in the morning, as they may reduce it.  Hannah 1, hot milk 0.  So I've taken the lorazepam and I'll go back to bed AGAIN to see if I can nod off.  My whole outlook has changed now I'm out of the depression and into a buzz - night holds no terrors and the time flies by, making me wonder where it's gone.  My thoughts per minute (tpm) have gone up, but I don't think I'm getting flight of ideas, although I am thinking fast.  I keep having to correct typos as I want to get it down as quickly as possible, and I'm making mistakes.  I want to be DOING things, but I don't know what.  I could tidy my study, but I only ever do that when I'm really high, so I'll avoid that little task.

I'll try again.