Had a smoked salmon sandwich and a glass of orange juice - didn't much want it but felt I had to eat something sensible. Now it's back to coffee and fags. I hope I've managed to stop going any higher - I've tried to be non stimulating all day, but the nights are different. At night, I want to shop and shop - bid and bid on eBay. I love the fun of the chase in online auctions - sniping at the last minute to get a bargain. I'm just hoping I don't have one of those nights tonight. My hands are bad again, so they are covered in cream - I'm on a new tin of Steamcream. A friend suggested Alpha H, so I'll investigate that later. I wish HT had come today - I could have offloaded some of my angst about going higher. I have to ring them in the morning to say what kind of a night I've had, so I hope I sleep.
I must make some phone calls to people who have sent me get well cards, but maybe I'll do that tomorrow. Now I'll go and watch the news and the local news - there's nothing else on.
I spent 16 years in the RAF defending the Free World , then got bunged out unceremoniously for being bipolar. I and was subsequently diagnosed with PTSD. Funny old world, isn't it?