I didn't even make it to 0130 this time - went to sleep at 2200 and had about an hour. My pillow is soaked with dribble (side effect) and my duvet is on the floor. This is no longer acceptable. Once again, I'm tired but not sleepy. Made a hot milk - that coffee machine really earns its keep - and I'm here for the duration. I wonder how many others who read this are sitting at their computers not able to sleep? Loads, I bet.
I was reading Hansard again this afternoon - more facts. More than 6 million adults in the UK suffer from depression and/or anxiety, but only a quarter of them are in treatment. Compare that with physical illnesses and 90% are in treatment. Stigma is one of the main reasons for that disparity. As far as IAPT is concerned, the service has only seen half a million people in 4 years, and the waiting time is often over a year. Only 6 sessions are allowed. Mental illness accounts for 38% of all illness, but only 5% of research. I suppose that is because so many of us never get better, and that makes mental illness a dead end for research. Not sexy enough.
Enough facts. I'm having therapy myself at the moment, which I'm hoping will help with nightmares and flashbacks. However, now I'm on the mend, I don't want to revisit the illness, and I'm sure many people feel the same. Once an episode is over, it's over and I don't want to be reminded of it. Nevertheless, I'll continue to go every week.
I spent 16 years in the RAF defending the Free World , then got bunged out unceremoniously for being bipolar. I and was subsequently diagnosed with PTSD. Funny old world, isn't it?