Well, hello again. This is turning out to be an habitual thing - waking at 0215 and not getting back to sleep till the early hours. Recently I seem to have seen dawn rise on quite a few occasions - very pleasing in itself but not what I would really want. I'm seeing my CPN today and I don't want to declare my sleeplessness because she'll think I should take more medication and I don't want to. So it's back to the hot milk (vanilla flavoured) and fags.
There's nothing on TV at this time of the night, although sometimes there's a good film. I watched Brighton Rock the other night - nothing like a spot of violence to help one doze off. At the moment, it's Al Murray the Pub Landlord hosting a quiz show where the winner takes home a frozen chicken. Is this what my life has become???
I'm trying out an e-cigarette at the moment. I'm still smoking, but the e-fag is for the times when I've just had a cigarette and it's too early to light the next one. I have a feeling that's not meant to be how it works.
Well, I might try bed again - I can always come back down here.
I spent 16 years in the RAF defending the Free World , then got bunged out unceremoniously for being bipolar. I and was subsequently diagnosed with PTSD. Funny old world, isn't it?