Well, it's 2045 and I've had a busy afternoon and evening. Firstly, I was given the whiskey I'd ordered for others to drink - I can't stand it and even the smell of it makes me feel sick. Then Home Treatment came to see me, and were a bit worried about how buzzy I was feeling - I'm a bit worried too, if truth be told. I felt driven to get out of bed at 0500 and was instantly awake and alert - not as drugged as I should have felt on the meds I take. I"m not tired now, either, but I have to go to bed soon. HT and I decided that I'd see how tonight goes, and see if I wake early again feeling alert, or if I'm up in the night. If either of those things happen, I'll probably adjust my meds, reducing the venlafaxine to 150mg to try to nip it in the bud. It's a pity really - I'd love a bit of a high, but they are always so destructive, mostly to my finances. And, of course, I burn out quite quickly. So it's best avoided.
Then a friend came round to drink said whiskey, and we put the world to rights. Now it's bedtime and I don't want to go up, but I suppose I'd better. I'll write more if I wake.
I spent 16 years in the RAF defending the Free World , then got bunged out unceremoniously for being bipolar. I and was subsequently diagnosed with PTSD. Funny old world, isn't it?