It's 0035 and I'm drinking hot milk - it wasn't supposed go be hot milk, buy I forgot to put the coffee pod in it. Anyway, it's very nice and has rushed me back to being a small child with a temperature, on Mummy's lap. So I'll have a proper drink when this is finished. I'm also having the inevitable ciggy - along with the smelling salts, they never leave my side.
Once again it's me against the world of sleeping beauties. Some of my friends who are older sleep fitfully - I, on the other hand - sleep like a log when I'm well, aided, it has to be said, by Mrs Quetiapine. If only she hadn't withdrawn her support, I'd be asleep now. But I'm not, so I must have offended her. As for nitrazepam, they used to work brilliantly for me, but at the moment they're not. I used to take chlorpromazine when I was high or psychotic, but that stopped working, which is why I'm on quetiapine. The nitrazepam is a good drug and I wouldn't want to be without it in my armoury. I have a crisis pack of pills, with 7 days' supply of everything - I keep it in case I go high over a weekend and haven't got time to wait to see a doctor. The GP hated the idea, but was overruled by HT. I go high very quickly, you see.
I haven't seen the news for weeks - I doubt anything earth shattering has happened whilst I've been away. Watching the news in bed sends me back to sleep when I'm well, but I avoid it at the moment.
I've had 3.5 hours - will there be more? Maybe.
I spent 16 years in the RAF defending the Free World , then got bunged out unceremoniously for being bipolar. I and was subsequently diagnosed with PTSD. Funny old world, isn't it?