I'm slightly calmer now - two lorazepam later. I was trying to avoid lorazepam today, but bugger it - it's better to take them than to carry on being angry and upset. I feel anxiety in my body as well as my mind -- my stomach, particularly. It's a whole body experience. My hands shake. However, it's a bit better now that I've ranted, even though it was by typing it out rather than talking to a real person. Thanks to Liz V for responding, by the way. I'll get a friend to take money out for me tomorrow - so that's sorted; all I have to do now is stop feeling angry. I can't listen to music, sadly, as the noise is too much, but I've got a Reiki CD that might relax me a bit, so I've put that on the CD player.
Just had HT on the phone - a nurse will visit in half an hour.
I spent 16 years in the RAF defending the Free World , then got bunged out unceremoniously for being bipolar. I and was subsequently diagnosed with PTSD. Funny old world, isn't it?