Well, I slept until just now (1930) so I hope I haven't buggered up my chances of a sleep tonight. I woke up to Strictly, which was a bit of a blow as I can't stand it. So that got switched off and I came into the kitchen - I still haven't unpacked Tesco's, but that's too bad. MY SAD lamp has arrived, so I've set it up and it's HUGE. Just goes to show that one should always check the dimensions of an item. Anyway, it's on the kitchen floor by my chair and the light it gives off is amazing. My kitchen only has one North facing window, so it can be quite dark in here, and the lamp makes a big difference. Let's hope it helps my mood.
There's not much on TV tonight, apart from the Dave channel, so I shall watch that when I go to bed. I've spoken to quite a few people on the phone today, which is an improvement - I"m still not answering it, but I"ll ring people back if I feel up to it. I spoke to my sister, who is playing tennis against Leicester today - it was raining in Loughborough, but apparently there are inside courts at the club she's going to. I used to play quite a bit of tennis, but it wasn't really my game - I preferred hockey and athletics. And of course sailing - when one is brought up in Cowes, one learns to sail before one can walk. I've sailed all over the place, including a trip from Sardinia to Gibraltar in terrible gales. That was with the RAF, and it was considered to be character building to do adventure training. I was up for anything in those days.
Now to the question of my mood. I had a good time at lunch, but was tired afterwards - I do find it exhausting to be out and about. However, I've had a kip and I don't feel too bad. I still have voices and thoughts, but at this time of day they recede a bit. I hope against hope that tomorrow will be better still.
I spent 16 years in the RAF defending the Free World , then got bunged out unceremoniously for being bipolar. I and was subsequently diagnosed with PTSD. Funny old world, isn't it?